i have finished the revelle song.
i really miss my grandma. i havent seen her since like 4th grade. shes getting old (88 in 20 days). she doesnt know jesus. shes raising her third generation of kids now and i think she feels underappreciated.
wow think about that. living for 90 years through your own childhood, your kids' childhoods, their kids childhoods, and now seeing the beginning of their kids childhoods. i counted. shes raised 11 kids now. and still at it, heck. my own childhood memories are already fading fast. i wonder if she remembers her own childhood. think about that. one day maybe i'll be her in place. how meaningless life must seem by that point, without a constant jesus and the hope of eternal life. most people you ever knew are probably dead or in some corner of the globe you are not aware of. and soon you'll only be a memory and pretty soon after that, any footprints you've left will have faded away too. if someone doesnt think life is overwhelmingly meaningless by then, they are extraordinarily lacking in any substantial awareness of their humanity. i already find life meaningless beyond words, if not for the hope of something more meaningful beyond this world thats keeping me here. its sad if people dont realize that life is meaningless, but its sadder if they realize and dont find the answer eventually. its my hope that no one would be so foolish as to not realize the meaninglessness of this world, and that everyone who realizes it would find the answer that lies beyond this world, that gives life meaning that doesnt end at death. ask me.