sometimes i'm afraid that i'm like a pharisee, thinking i know everything about God, but completely missing the point. sometimes i'm afraid i'm just faking it, spewing lies when i say i love jesus, and fooling myself. because i still sin and according to john, righteous people can't sin. the bible confuses me sometimes. i'm missing something here.

in other news, i have tons of cramming to do before monday. good luck to me. also, i realized that i study for finals. since when did that happen, cuz that totally went under my radar. FINALS WEEK IS SUPPOSED TO BE RELAXING, HELLO. ok. done.

the radio in elena's head is currently playing: times (tenth avenue north)


  1. According to John, but is it according to Jesus. It is our human nature to sin. Didn't John sin? Wasn't he the one that denied he ever knew Jesus when Jesus was captured? We sin and we cannot do anything about it unless Jesus helps.

    And I believe that I love Jesus. Whenever Im troubled, I always seek Jesus and ask himself, by myself, where no one can see me, and without any outer influences whatsoever. I think that if you seek Jesus on your own without any outer motivations, then you truly love Jesus, and you're not lying to yourself. It would be truly illogical if you did look for Him, but not love Him.

  2. it's in the bible. i believe in the bible. whether or not the words came from jesus' mouth, it's from God. and whether or not it makes sense to me, it's still from God and i believce it's true.

    and that was peter who denied jesus.

  3. oooo....i was so confused when i typed that out. i was like, i know someone denied jesus in john. i think it was john....wait, but why would john right about himself. hmmm, am i hallucinating. yeah.

  4. just wondering then. oscar told me there was something...controversial with Numbers or something like that. anyways, some book in the bible, chapters something in the tens digit, was like eh to many people. but if it was in the bible, then its God's word. if so, why are they so eh about it.

  5. where in john that says righteous people can't sin?

  6. Everyday, we'll have tendencies to become like pharisees, no Christian is immune to that. In fact, we are extremely vulnerable to it, becoming legalistic and speaking well on the outside when the inside rots. First thing to realize is to ask God to help us to rid us of our legalistic nature. At the reunion, I shared with you the pride and fear sine curve, the one that results from being legalistic, and break through that and gain freedom from that is understanding that His love for us never changes, that He loves us simply because we exist. Also understand that His grace is sufficient enough for us. In response, we reply with gratitude and hope, and in that comes spiritual growth.
    And then this is a must for a Christian who truly wishes for maturity, he or she must look deep into his or her heart instead of running away from the problems they may have as a Christian. When Cain had envy, the most intimate question God asked him was "Why are you downcast?" Why? Why are you thinking this? To not be shallow and to gain growth, you must look deep into your heart and see all the darkness that still resides, and ask God for forgiveness, and ask Him to cure you for He loves you so much that He shall definitely do that.
    Remember, I told you that Mother Teresa would see herself right next to Hitler next on the "Holy scale". She had humility and was willing to see the darkness that is still in her heart and through that, she is able to see how big God's grace is, and falls even deeper in love with God. Just like that story that Jesus gave, the person who owed more but had the debt canceled was happier and more grateful. Remember from the message I shared? Humble and grateful people are always happy.

  7. As for the righteous. I don't know which part of John you're paraphrasing from, but don't take one part of the Scripture and not consider all other parts of the Scripture. Parts of Scripture are meant to complement each other. No righteous one sins. That is because there is no one righteous but God Himself. We are all sinners. What differs Christians from non-Christians is that we are forgiven sinners, which is HUGE difference. Jesus clothes us in His righteousness. When God looks at us, He sees Jesus protecting us. His blood has made us clean. Everything has been done. If you have faith in Jesus, believe in Him, trust in Him, and love Him, He clothes you with His righteousness.
    So we will be sinners until we enter heaven, and we will definitely fall. But from failure, we ask God for forgiveness and learn to depend on Him more rather than listen to ourselves.
    Look at these words from Apostle Paul:
    "I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

    21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God's law; 23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? 25Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!
    So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin." (Romans 7:15-24)

  8. Peter betrayed Jesus. Judas betrayed Jesus.
    Peter trusted Jesus. Judas did not.
    Peter repented and returned to Jesus and became a stronger lover of Christ. Judas suicide.
    "Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death." (2 Corinthians 7:10)

    "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness." (1 John 7:9)

    "7To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. 8Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." (2 Corinthians 7-10)
    His grace is sufficient for you, for His power is made perfect in weakness. So when you're weak, you're strong. Be thankful and boast about your weaknesses.

    I think there's a lot more that the Spirit can type through me right now, but the rest shall be given to you as you have a heart to heart connection with our loving Savior after you read this.
    God loves you, sis.

  9. Read my next comment AFTER you have prayed.

  10. This is what my pastor shared for thanksgiving:

    "I am thankful for Jesus–my perfect older brother, behind whom I can hide, who holds my hand through the valleys of life and ministry, who has defeated death and sin and the devil, and whose infinite credit will cover my deficit, whose obedience and victory he shares with me, whose righteousness is given to me because I have none. Jesus and his righteousness gives me rest and peace, knowing that all that I could ever want is mine already in him."

    God bless you, sis.


  12. i didnt say it was from the gospel of john. it's from 1, 2, or 3 john, i dont remember which. but yes i do know i need to take it in context, which is the part i'm missing right now. but i believe that whatever i'm missing is there somewhere.

    and yes, thank you, wes. even tho i have doubts, it doesnt change what i believe. me seeing a possible pharisee and liar in myself IS me looking into my heart.

  13. and bryan i dont understand your third comment.

  14. You are talking about 1 John 3, the passage means people who evidence no salvation but instead continually to sin are not abiding in a vital relationship with God, and have not been born directly from God.

    1 John 3:6 has a participle that should be translated continuously sins.

    1 John 3:6 Every particular person who is continually remaining (participle) in a vital relationship with Him is not sinning continuously (present active indicative); every particular person who is continually sinning (a participle) has not seen Him (with a lasting impact), nor known Him (with a lasting impact, a prefect tense).

    3:9 Every particular person who has been begotten directly from God is not doing (continually, present active indicative) sin, because the seed (the birth from God) reamins in him, and he is not able to keep on sinning (present infinitive), because directly out of God he has been begtotten in the past and the effect of that remains.

  15. ohh. that helps a lot. thank you mama.