2.25.2010

i'm starting to get very prone to mood swings and taking offense and i generally feel less happy/satisfied in life. makes me wonder, does my joy in life come from music instead of God? i listed the things i felt like i lacked now after over a week w/o playing piano/guitar, and shockingly i realized it was the first four of the fruit of the spirit. a little alarming....... i shouldnt need music if the holy spirit is in me, but is it still a facilitator of .... community with him? or is what i think is the fruit of the spirit really just something from regular emotional purging? i overall feel more impurities in me, but i dont know if that's just me coming to realize them now, or are they new? whatever the case, playing music apparently is very closely linked with my overall resilience and happiness... wellbeing in general. but i'm going to learn how to be who i am in christ w/o the music. i feel like i'm dehydrated without the music.

4 comments:

  1. hang in there. i know you can do it. ^^

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  2. The Spirit works on our emotions. As far as I know that is the only thing He does, -- work on our emotions, change how you feel about life, then what visible is the fruit described as Love, peace, joy, etc.

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  3. "i'm going to learn how to be who i am in christ w/o the music", just to be like so many of us that without that special gift from the Spirit? Why this is so admirable any way??

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  4. Are you still fasting from music? I think it is time to breakfast. Please don't hid your talant in the ground too long. Use it wisely and earn more talants with what you are given. Be a good and faithful servant in God's eye. Best wishes,

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