Day 6: A song that reminds you of a best friend

From Erica, lol. It's catchy sounding until she starts saying "US boy"? haha.

In other news, I have no idea how I'm going to survive having a schedule like this because those night classes on Tu/Th kill my brain and I don't have brains to do anything at night... and a lot needs to be done.


Day 5: A song that is often stuck in your head

So first of all, I'm starting to get nervous for this quarter. I need to stop psyching myself out. I have this hum reading due tomorrow. On Liberty, John Stuart Mill. It's a 100 page book, so dense and packed with political theory that it reminds me of Hobbes' Leviathan. Except 5 times shorter, thank God. So I read 25 pages in 2 hours. I'm normally a decently fast reader. This makes me nervous. I need to calm down. So I decided not to read over dinner because I needed a break, so I turned on my ipod and switched to the Christian playlist. The first song? Elise, the one that I listed in the last post as one that calms me. I don't even know why it's on that playlist, but haha, God knew that I needed to calm down. ...That is all.

Day 5: a song that is often stuck in your head.
I have phases and it switches around, but here's one that's been recent, maybe because the last week of last quarter, I wanted to hear it on a whim, and then I wanted to play it, so I've had a webpage with the chords open in my browser for a while, and every time I see the title, it starts playing in my head again.


Day 4: A song that calms you down

Ochem C counts as a bio elective. Interesting.

Rob Loomis: "Elise"
His style reminds me of my own and I find my own playing very therapeutic. Transitive property. Although it's richer to play it AND hear it than to just play it. 


Day 3: A song that reminds you of one/both of your parents

Day 2: A song that reminds you of your most recent ex-boyfriend/girlfriend. Not exactly applicable. You know when you press the skip button on your music player or whatever you use? *skip*

Day 3: A song that reminds you of one/both of your parents

I like this song. The lyrics are often exactly what I want to say, in the right language. Prayers in my heart seem more genuine and intimate when they're in Chinese (well, Chinglish). And I know this song because of my mom. 

Lord, You are my most understanding friend,
Lord, You are my dearest companion.
You are always on my mind, every day,
I long to see Your face.
At every stage of my life,
During each little pause in my life,
Your hand is always holding me,
Keeping me by Your side,
Telling me the path which I should take,
That I might not slide towards death!
How long, how wide, how deep and high is Your love!
From the depths of my heart, I am in awe!
With You, I need nothing else!
My heart is joined to Yours!
I have vowed to follow You and never change my mind!


Day 1: A song from your childhood

...from graceypoo. We'll see how long this lasts.

Day 1: A song from your childhood.

Every single week at church for offering when I was in elementary school... was this song. I still play it when I play piano for the kids, haha. Nothing's changed at all...


Well that was interesting

I did not mean to make such a big stir with the last post. I expected some misunderstandings, but not to this extent. Amazing how people misunderstand and get worked up over things I didn't even say. But I guess it's not completely there fault, because my hook ("it was partly my fault") was maybe a little too effective. I didn't mean it literally, sorry guys. Funny how what upset me most was the possibility that maybe I was getting all this crap for actually doing something wrong in God's eyes, rather than doing something right and being misunderstood/offending others. I am ok with being misunderstood and while I don't like offending people, I can't help it if they don't like what I believe. Or what they think I believe. I don't expect everyone to understand. I can take the crap. But for a moment I really thought I was going crazy because when I went back and read it, it seemed to be perfectly normal reasoning and not extraordinarily radical or offensive or theologically incorrect. I still don't think it's offensive if understood properly (which many fail to). And I'm pretty sure it's not theologically incorrect. But I guess it might be considered radical. What a difference between how Christians see the world and how others see the world. I was expecting a mostly Christian audience so I didn't bother to explain some background things that I probably should have. Sorry, nonchristian cyberspace community. That was my bad. Please read my explanations in the comments and on Facebook if you haven't already. It might make you feel better if I offended you.

So yes, even though I had a pretty rough weekend for it, I feel so much more complete now for having been through all that. I actually understand what Jesus/Paul mean when they talk about the "present sufferings" and "sharing in Christ's sufferings" and stuff. AND "the apostles left the Sanhedrin, rejoicing because they had been counted worthy of suffering disgrace for the Name." I'm not sure I'm jumping for joy yet, but I guess it is pretty cool to suffer for Jesus' sake. That is the one thing most worth suffering for. 


The natural disasters in Japan.....

... is partly my fault.

So I love Japan and want to see Japanese people come to know Jesus, right? I realized that one big problem with a lot of performance-driven Asian people is that they think they are self-sufficient and good if they perform well. I am was one of those people. Well that is most definitely not the case, as we are all to some degree morally deficient by God's standards. The point is, I've been praying for God to make Japanese people realize that they need him. And God is answering me by (literally) shaking up the nation to make them realize that they are not self-sufficient, and that everything that they're working for in this life is in vain. I was not expecting something of this magnitude when I prayed that prayer, but somehow I am not surprised. It's so like God to do something like that. I don't mean to sound cold, because this is very tragic and is shaking me up too, but rather I have great hopes as to what God can accomplish through this.

So now the reaction has started, but we have to make sure it goes to completion! It will have been the most useless thing ever if our current highly unstable transition state returns to starting material! After all that painful investment of energy! In other words, (for those of us who are not in the most ideal positions to directly reach out to them) we must pray them through this! We (at least I, but I can't be the only one) prayed, and it began, and now we need to keep praying for good to come of this! Because I see a lot of potential good, but I also see a lot of potential bad. Product, not starting material, guys. Shift the equilibrium to the product side!(Ochem final on Monday!) They have great physical need at the moment, but they have a much greater spiritual need that's been building up for decades and centuries now.

And if you remember, I've been supporting the Aoyagi family (aoyagifamily.wordpress.com) in their permanent missions trip to Japan. I've been praying for God to use them to further his kingdom in Japan. Well, they finally moved there less than a month ago. Within a month! Now do you see the extent of how drastically God is answering my prayers??? Anyway. They are ok, and I've heart a little about how they've been able to reach out to people unable to go home as trains shut down, even as they were unable to go home for the same reason. God clearly has them there for a very specific reason and purpose, and it's happening! As always, they could use our prayer support, if we would give it.

On a bigger scale, God is amazing. Amazing at how he listens to us and infinitely more amazing period. But at the same time I'm starting to realize how similarly potentially disastrous a lot of my other prayers have been. Wow, I'm almost scared to see what else is going to start happening. I could very well have been praying the same prayer for YOU.