uh am i delusional or are there people drinking in my bathroom?

wishlist for christmas:
guitar

time to be azn for a day and face the facts. 65% is a bad score to be a third of your course grade.
time to stop being azn. thats 5% better than expected and i can still reasonably hope for an a/b in the class. but even if i dont get that, somehow that doesnt bother me. i learned something about the rms speed of molecules in a nonideal gas. that, of course, makes failing the class totally ok.
on the other hand, maybe i should study more than two hours the night before next time.

a little busy lately. i have an essay, which constantly makes me feel like i have more to do, so i'm like being more workaholic than i have been since... high school. actually thats not saying much, BUT AT LEAST I'M WORKING (even if slowly) MOST (relatively speaking) OF MY (free?) TIME NOW. what i mean is i'm focusing and getting stuff done, sort of, and depriving myself (also relatively speaking) of fb now. which is why i'm being slow in answering emails and wall posts and everything, sorry.

yeah i didnt even understand my essay prompts when i first saw it. there were two and i couldnt tell the diff. and i didnt know half the terms it was using. good thing i changed the grading option to pass/fail on the last day possible, right? so i signed up for a time slot in the prof's office hours to ask her. on my way up to her office after class, i was reading and rereading the prompts, trying desperately to understand the prompts enough to formulate real questions to ask. by the time i got to her office, i understood the prompts and i didnt have to ask anymore lol. she didnt show up anyway, so i didnt have to face her intimidating presence w/o a legit question to ask.

btw, curves are awesome. the grading kind, not the graphical kind...

I GOT BROWNIES IN THE MAIL AGAIN!!!!

ok i am throwing out a desperate prayer request for waterwalkers. from what i hear, it's not going well at all. also heard some not so encouraging things about afc. it makes my heart ache. whyyyyy... things are so awesome here. why arent they awesome in cupertino too?? high school kids just not mature enough?? maybe, maybe not. anyway. ask me if you want more details. tell me if you have news about either, or any more specific requests. i am going to start seriously praying for these two.

everyone back at mv is like swamped. meanwhile, i'm often bored for lack of stuff to do. reminds me of the good old days when i had so much going on that even finding 20 min a weekend to help my dad pick persimmons or something was a strain. life was dense. something is wrong with this picture. why do little kids (relatively speaking? lol) get so swamped that they cant even think straight anymore, when the almost adults can easily find time to hang out and mess around literally everyday? (disclaimer: i am speaking from personal experience and dont claim to speak for everyone. i know not everyone experiences this.) life is weird. society is weird. ok fine ill be straightforward. society is messed up. i could complain a lot, but that doesnt do much, so i wont list everything i think is wrong with america. college being easier than high school the very least of these, if its even on the list.

it's ok, ill have an essay to write next week.

oh and i dont mean that the course content is easier than it was at mv. its def not. but the workload is much easier.

my printer ran out of ink already... it was a new cartridge when i came here but 5 weeks ago... lol. i swear, i have already printed out a textbook by now haha. AND i have used up just about all the paper i brought...

so i took my chem midterm this morning and it wasnt as bad as i'd expected, but then again, i expected to not even understand about half of the problems. and then i was very braindead. and then i went to lunch on the other side of campus WITH MY FRIEND NAMED ELENA WHOM I HAVENT SEEN SINCE 5TH GRADE, except once by accident at safeway like in 6th or 7th grade. :]] i also discovered that somehow cupertino doesnt end at de anza blvd. wth im so confused. where does it end then? ...

i miss my sister more than all of you.

i feel like a traitor for saying this, but i am so happy here that i almost dont want to go home for thanksgiving. except itll be nice to see bay area friends again. why am i not homesick???? very unexpected.

yesterday i got my math midterm back, and it was a low b, which i was totally ok with, until i realized that most of my grade is two midterms and the final, and that i was also trying to get into med school. so i was like hm maybe i should study more. but then today in class i was reminded that everything is curved. so i dont have to study yay.

i just had the weirdest bowl of pho i have ever encountered in my life before. the noodles were 米粉. the soup tasted like cinnamon. they had the nerve to call it pho.

last night i was TRYING to go back to my room, so i went up the stairs i usually take, but for some reason i thought i was going up the other set of stairs when i got to the top, and since argo is more or less symmetical, i couldnt really tell the difference at the top. i stood at the top of the stairs thinking, should i go back to my room first, or should i stop by neilsons room to get the solutions manual? i decided to go back to my room, so i went to what i thought was my suite, except the door was closed and i was too lazy to get my card out, so i went through the door of what i thought was the adjoining suite, since it was open...... only to find myself in a guys suite. can you imagine how confused i was. lol. half of me was rather embarrassed and wanted to leave very quickly, but luckily it just so happened to be neilsons suite, so i was like hm maybe ill just pretend i meant to come here and get the solutions manual i was going to get anyway? also very luckily, he happened to be on his way out, so before i could decide, he had given me the solutions manual. ... so disillusioned.

also i had guava last night. REAL guava. it tasted like a plant. ...not at all like guava juice lol.

shoutout to bryan for finally telling his mom that he's christian and not getting owned for it as expected. :]]]]]] yayyy bryan.

some stalkerish ppl somehow managed to send me a care package in the middle of bible study last night via another person in the bible study. how the heck did they know i was with jeff?? like he got up, went outside, and came back with a package in the middle of luke 10. wth. lol.

highlights from the weekend:

1. i have bruises on my forearms from playing vball. yay vball.

2. i had korean tofu soup stuff 2 nights ago. yay korean food. so good after dining hall food.

3. costco has cheap food. yay costco.

4. i saw a british columbia license plate at costco. yay british columbia lol.

5. i went to harbor presbyterian church yesterday and their congregation is pretty small, so they actually ask for prayer requests and individually pray for those requests during service. pretty cool.

6. i also got about nothing done this weekend.

7. im starting to get guitar callouses on my fingers yay.

8. psych class is apparently cancelled today. again. i havent had this class in a week. my midterm is also postponed. we are extremely behind schedule.

9. i am extremely happy here.

news item 1: i have found my fellowship, 90% probably. its called little sparks and dude, we talked about being a missionary to our neighbors, and loving them, and we brainstormed a plethora of ideas to love all the diff ppl in our lives. we talked about getting into their culture to better minister to them. if that means going to a party with alcohol to get to know your friends better, be there for them, and make them realize that you dont judge their choices (in other words, love them)...... well i could get in trouble for saying this. haha. yes, if you know me, you can see why i love this fellowship and why it sticks out to me. it is by far the most down to earth fellowship i have ever encountered, and their goal of reaching out to nonchristians is my goal, but yet they challenge me to be more radical in the ways i love others. i think i have found my mission team. :]

news item 2: last night i stayed up til 1 playing the sentence game with nancy and neilson. the results are on facebook. yay. i love college life.

news item 3: i miss all my 小/大弟弟们. and my 妹妹. but i wouldnt say im really homesick. yet.

news item 4: i was absolutely so very productive yesterday as i had friends over pretty much literally from 2:30 to 1 yesterday. THATS RIGHT 2:30 TO 1, THATS NOT BACKWARDS. yeah. except for that break in which i went to little sparks, which was epic.

i forgot the rest of them. 39 days til i come back!

i visited my friend's off-campus apartment and i rode in her car and i realized that i havent ridden in/driven a car for like a month... and that made me a little homesick. the area looks a little like cupertino too. like stevens creek/de anza. hm i miss driving.

i have too much pride in me.

i learned something about myself. i remember faces better than i do names. maybe because everyone has about the same name. jk. but, oh no, thats a right brain function. jk.

i also decided that if im premed out of obedience to God, then i should put my all into it. that means i should try a little harder in class, maybe. but just because i dont care about hw as much as i used to, does that mean i'm not trying as hard? just because i dont put as much emotional energy into class, does that mean i'm not doing as well? aye, there's the rub. cuz my grades didnt drop my senior year when i put less emotional energy into class.

anyway, the point is that out of obedience to God, i should watch my grades and not be too lazy. except i still think he wants me to have a life, so i will. THAT MEANS I NEED TO STUDY FOR MY MIDTERMS sigh ok. (jk im not that grudging.)

and we did review in math today. like review review, whatever that means. that came completely unexpected (after mr stark), and i am tempted to say that i think college is officially easier than high school now, except its only week three (how long will i have to wait before i have the right to judge college?).

JESUS LOVES YOUUUU. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pyLJlkYv8hw

I GOT BROWNIES IN THE MAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! is that not the most awesomest thing since jesus or what?

according to my psych textbook, left brain is associated with positive emotions, while right brain is associated with negative emotions. i am clearly left brained in the way i think and function, if you know me. is that why im a happy person in general? interesting. is that why artists and creative ppl (right brained) always seem to be depressed and stuff (just look at how many famous writers were crazy)? interesting.

OMG I AM ACTUALLY GETTING HALFWAY DECENT AT GUITAR. ill be pro by summertime. :]

dude i saw pastor owen today. is that not the randomest thing ever or what?